It was a cold rainy night, all I wanted to do was to reach into my bed and snuggle the night away, imagining the bolster is an adorable guy I cant wait to kiss..instead I laid there for hours not sleeping and that much far away from a wet dream!
I reached out to my phone and it was a guy 609m from my location. The question read: How are you? Seeking fun? t/b?
As exciting as it could have been 7 hours ago, I just ignored the messages in Grindr and focused on sleeping. The thing is, the more I focused the more active my mind became.
I asked myself, how did I arrive here? 8 years ago, his embrace was all that I needed to feel comforted and calm. Now, that im older, with plenty of choices of man meat and encounters which are far more intimate than an embrace it feels rather empty.
Since I was already up, I logged into my Facebook and weird enough, there was a message from him. He said: How are you?
The difference is, this time I am not so keen to respond…they say time heals everything and 8 years was pretty long to get over him.
Instantly I was taken back to the day that I left with my friend to the bus station while he looked at us taking off just the evening after the night he told me he would not be back the next semester..
The 3 hours journey back home was the longest journey I took in my life. I keep telling myself that life has to go on..but everytime our favourite song played on my mp3 player, I would lose it and tears flowed freely that night.
Luckily it was already dark and sniffles were the only thing audible that night. I wanted to text him immediately to say I missed him..but I didn’t..why?
Because I didn’t want to be clingy.
The days that followed were tough.. I was waiting for his call and he was waiting for mine but neither wanted to give in..then it finally happened.
I called him:
Me: Hey bro, how are you?
Him: Im okay here. How are you doing?
Me: I miss you like crazy >>that’s what I really wanted to say, instead I said: I allright. Quite bored at home.
Him: Yeah I play the computer games daily until my mom nags
Me: Haha….so hows the preparation to move to over there?
Him: We plan to survey the area later today..
Me: Okay (damn! Looks like he was serious afterall)…….long pause…hey bro, I got to go now, call u later…
>Then I hung up….
Kudos to you and your member followers. I was wrong and misled in confiscating your precious time the entire morning today to review my rather far-fetched and not naturally pertinent entries. If it troubles you then I should not ask you to even visit my blog at first place.
ReplyDeleteThe conceive ideas portrayed there are stupid and I regret the unfavorable feeling you might have had after reading them.
The entries are not as intelligent as yours here and my entries are just 'kampung' style and not an upgraded ones like yours. My bad.
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How comeu dont update ur blogs already?
ReplyDeleteIll try to update them more frequently
ReplyDeleteI like ur blog... this is first time i ever comment on someone's blog. U write honestly. With soul. Many here would have had similar experience as urs... be it the first visit to sauna, or the first guy that stole ur heart. Years later, u may not regret those experiences which mold who u r today.. slowly u would realize.. never never fall for a straight guy. There are only 3 ways to end it: u keep looking for a guy who looks every way like him but not him, u never find another him; u would not want to see him again because it still hurt craizily after all these years; u never see him again not that u dont want to but life only let us live young once and only once. So, put aside ur ego, just reply him like a good friend even if he is still straight.. time really heals. We have new discoveries in life.. the scar is still there, the pain no more.
ReplyDeleteNice story.
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