Scanning for Balls, Undetected

It wasn’t even that obvious. Just a passing look. How could that make me feel something. It was not fear. Definitely not lust. It was yearning. It is amazing how something so brief, within a split second could say so much. What should I do?

To pursue it, it means I have to come out of my comfort zone. Maybe face rejection. More than that, I do not have it up my sleeves the skills to do it. I have never done it before.

The social media persona / the person we project to the world is not who we are in real. In the actual world, there are  consequences. Cause and effect and real emotions involved.

So, I am going to do what I have always done. Secretly wish someone will take the first step. I know, it is pathetic.

The first step is to acknowledge that there is a problem…

Quick question: How many more steps before I grow so
me balls to pursue it??

In the mean time, lets keep blaming the world that good things never happen to me.

Seek? Pic? T or B?

Seek?...

Pic?..

How about a total random pictureless profile asking for your pictures?

I have read somewhere that a lot of people live in their own bubble. Imaginary world where they feel like the sun revolves around them. Some people call it self confidence.

Quite the contrary, I think you should remain in the bubble, for the greater good of the mankind.

I mean if you have a blank profile and demand pic from others, WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU ??

First of all, thank you for texting me and saying you enjoyed my writing. I appreciate it. It may not change the world, but it may make you a little horny…err I mean…nope…horny that’s exactly it lol..

We have all come across these scenarios. I think there’s a learning curve and an obvious math to it all.

When I used to be underweight. Like realllyyy underweight, any random texts from any random people including weird ones, racists and self entitled ones used to excite me.

Now come on! Don’t disagree with me: If someone says No INDIANS (Capital) / no Chinese (usually without Capital). These do not translate as preference. Preference is when you choose to not respond / block when someone harasses you or to act mature and actually telling them that they are not your taste.

For those who keep texting when the other does not respond, there is a little something called self respect. You do not owe him anything. He doesn’t want anything to do with you. There are millions of other “male chicken” out there to try. You deserve better.

Then there is another type of people who offer money to blow or get f**ked. I am not exactly sure of your circumstances. Maybe you are married or cheating or extremely closeted, or you may feel like you actually need to pay to have some “rub-rub oolala”.

Really?? You would pay for rub-rub-oolala?.

Isn’t there a “market” for every type of guy out there.

Some like chubby, some like skinny, some like hairy, some like smooth and some like smooth body with thick thighs, itty bitty waist and wet dripping spandex from heaven.

I do not know why you may want to pay for it but doesn’t paying for massage and get your money’s worth of happy ending better than facing rejection from someone who thinks you are beneath him.

Talking about the gay math, it varies from one individual to another. Personally, mine comes from my journey of self-realization and self-worth.

Well I have not gotten my shite figured out and together but me believe is that: I should only meet midways and to not let myself completely go in any relationship / hook-up. Why? Coz when everything else goes to hell, you only have yourself to pick yourself back together.

Sometimes I wonder: Do we really enjoy compliments from everyone?

Sometimes I think that we appreciate the compliment more when it comes from someone we like / attracted to.

So, WHAT DO YOU SEEK?

I do not know. That is my honest answer. Why don’t you tell me what you can offer instead.

And……if you send your picture without saying anything. I think you need to wakeup and not think so highly of yourself. You may think you are a 10, but I may think you are an ASSHOLE.

Being a Peacock, Is it a Trend or am I Reading too Much Into It?

I cant decide between overthinking or if it means something else.

Lately I notice this happening more frequently at the gym. 

Incident 1:

I am done with working out at the gym and head to changing room. Since I go early in the morning, there are only a handful of guys at the gym who come around the same time. I noticed this dude has a habit of lingering in the changing room, flexing his muscles. Well, nothing out of the ordinary to be honest. This person is a habitual poser and I didnt pay much attention to it as I need to rush for shower and head to work. Initially, he was all about flexing at looking at himself in the mirror. I admire his confidence to do it in public. Well, the public being me and I could never flex in front of people like that. Then after a few days, about the time I go into the changing room, this time his shirt was off + flexing.

Okkk, he was easy on the eyes and I told myself: Wow, this guys is really confident isn't he?.

Another few more days, you have guessed it right, the same guy, about the same time staring in the mirror flexing. His shirt  was off and his pants was also off.....his boxer briefs had cartoon patterns on them...

Incident 2:

I was at a different club closer to home. It was a weekend and the gym was pretty packed. Some of them looked friggin good looking. Some looked like models. I noticed this guy smooth, fair skin. Was wearing long tights with jersey shorts over it. Microfibre shirt, bulging muscles and pretty handsome. I was doing back, he was doing arms. He finished his workout 30 mins (approx.) before me. 

I assumed he left as the gym was pretty packed. As I went to the locker connected to the changing area he appeared suddenly and started flexing at the mirror. I got my shaker and went to fill with water and returned to the locker area. He was still there, flexing and suddenly he took his shirt off and continued flexing.

Incident 3:

It was an early morning workout and there was this muscular guy who was taking too long in between sets, like 10 mins apart walking around, using his phone and taking selfies. After 15 mins I gave him a piece of my mind and told him off to share the equipment as hes busy walking around and wasting time. So we did share and done with the session. After a few days the same guy was at the gym. I didnt look at him and did my thing. After shower, I was all dressed and applying some face cream. That guy appeared, put his bag beside me, took his shirt off and was staring into the mirror. It felt uncomfortable. I didn't turn /look up and quickly left the gym.

Is this common behaviour in the gym or am I missing something?

Let's say I am a little syok sendiri and assume that they are hinting something, isn't saying Hi a good starting point instead of being a peacock about it?.

I will agree that all these men look amazing, but I cant help but to think: DO I COME OFF AS AN EASY TARGET WHOM WILL RESPOND TO JUST ANYONE? dafuk bro..#oofended