well my queer eyed friends...the last picture of my previous picture pretty much sums up what happened in the car the other night....it was the best one i had in my life..although now i think it could possibly be due to the fact that it was the first one and there was such and intense feeling of sluttiness, adventure and fear of doing it in a parked car in a residential area where the houses are of 2 storeys (which means people can see what we were doing in the car) that made it stand out from the rest..
up until then i had no idea i had it in me..that i would take the pants off in the car and do something so unimaginable..but he was really good..it was creepy but in an incredibly sexy way...
somewhere between the friendster and hi5 days, i actually made up my mind to do it for real..
you can read about it here: http://simpleguy529.blogspot.com/2010/12/my-first-encounter-part-1-all.html and here: http://simpleguy529.blogspot.com/2010/12/my-first-encounter-part-2-that-was-last.html
and then...it feels like something is always missing....which i dont quite get what it was..
comments on hi5, gymming, grooming, looking good...it still felt like something was missing..after thinking about it for sometime, i told myself..maybe i need to connect emotionally rather that just physically...
so i made another profile in fbuds (not sure if it still exists anymore....) i made it a point to make conversation here..and after a some time, i came to know about utopia..
it felt like Disneyland...to know that there were so many cruising spots in the Klang Valley scatter ever so conveniently nearby me.... until Utopia i didnt even know there were spas and massage centres for homosexual men... even at that age and no exposure i has the presence of mind of not visiting the crusing spots.
the reason was pretty straight forward..when its free, it becomes easy..when its easy it becomes cheap..when its cheap everybody gets access to everything...when people dont have anything, they have nothing to lose..call me a bigot i would wear the title very proudly....
i just knew at the back of my mind that cruising spots are just not worth it because every desperate guy can go to it and take unnecessary risk....like doing it unprotected and in public toilets...
so from Utopia i came to know about gay clubs and the guy i met in the previous post what the person who popped by virgin club cherry...we was a member of marketplace and one fine saturday night we went to it...fascinatingly he also brought a friend..he was pretty quiet and it was my first time...i was scared for all the right reasons..i was never 'out' at a crowd of gay men...i cant dance and i didnt know anyone there...and the biatch who brought me there had so many friends there that i was left with this quiet guy..
shitty! was the word going through my mind that night..but it wasnt all bad..the quiet guy turned out to be a nice guy and we got into chatting...turns out this guy is a childhood friend of the other guy..and bla bla bla..
i noticed that even though gay men dress up in suggestive ways and flaunt their assets, deep down we are all shy and we keep waiting for someone else to make the first move to us..asking us to dance, to chat or even xxx...(well this was many many years ago..in my case)
so although i spent a long time chatting with this guy, it didnt go anywhere below the waist..quite a dissappointment especially when i paid 25 bucks just to enter the damn place...the price of orgasm...sighhhhh
again the clubbing scene gave me a scene of emptiness...i still dont quite get it...maybe because i didnt have many gay friends...
so after that, i tried to make conversation to the guys in fbuds....to chat for a bit....getting to know one another before meeting up and doing something more...
that when i came to know this guy...who was in a way...an angel...
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