guilty pleasure (Part 1)

i guess my previous post was a little emo...i dont get emo that easy just that these few  weeks have been really tough..ok enough abt that

for a change im going to talk about something about myself:

1. im easily addicted to new stuff. the first thing i got addicted to was internet. it happened when i was 14 and we bought the first pc at home. back in those days, pcs we freakishly expensive and we had to take a loan to buy it. first i was harmlessly playing tetris and solitaire. few months in we had the internet. at that time the internet was charged by duration. one fine day, i created an email and somehow, i clicked on images on male butt in tight jeans...i was really curious about the front as well and lucky for me, there were links to that as well...whoa!! wasnt i fascinated at those images...these innocent thrills went on for sometime until a fine print in one of the websites said: if u are a minor or if u are not gay, please leave this website..GAY? what the hell was that?? seriously guys i didnt know back then..

2. the next thing i got addicted to was ICQ. i can still remember the 'oh owh!!' tone for every incoming messages. well all my contact were men with juicy juicy pictures, not to mention juicy juicy nicknames. it was so hard to keep that 'secret' account so i would put password of mayhem to ensure no one would EVER discover it. there was this guy called Mark from UK who would seduce me by telling stories of how he would like to 'perform' stuffs to me that made me coming back for more ..damn Mark!!those days we would politely refer to KKJ as SNAKE and BUSH>>pretty dumb huh??

3. so at 14-16 years i didnt know what GAY was. but i was actively participating on conversation that is very sexual (thanks to that PEDO Mark!). i must have become sexually 'able' at that time coz everytime we talked, i would get wet and i was only 15 at that time. since we didnt have separate personal pcs and thumb drives were non existent, i have no option to store the pictures which gave me the dripping sensation and my senses were very much heightened. i had the most sensitive ears...the moment i hear door knobs, my hands would move at lightning speed to close all the open windows...