guilty pleasure (part 2)

4. so the conversation with pedo Mark went on for about a year and a half to 2. let me remind u guys that i am still not aware of what GAY is. i kept chatting with him because it made me feel good....and at that age i remember doing onesome on multiple times a day..there was a time when i exchanged my picture with Mark. Mark seemed to be a chubby guy, bald head and slightly over 40. i was 25 years older than im. after sending him my picture which was me in my school uniform in a picture with my debating team, i totally freaked out. i was afraid that Mark would misuse my picture and post it on some porn websites. thank god that digital cameras were yet to be invented at that time or else im pretty darn sure i would have taken compromising pictures of myself and made a fool of myself...so i did what every scared teenage gay boy would do.. i asked Mark:

me: mark do u think im gay (i asked him this question after chatting about sex with him almost 2yrs!!)

mark: i dont know, do u think u are gay?

me: mark, i think i like to look at pictures of men.

mark: when u look at those pictures where do u look at??

me: i dont understand (YEAH RIGHT!!)

mark: i mean when u look at pictures of men, which area do u look at??

me: i dont have a speficic area that i look at (of course i lied)...but i really like to be like those muscular guys..

mark: do u imagine yourself having sex with them or masturbate while thinking about those pictures

me: i dont think so (because at that time, i havent started surfing for gay porn, i didnt even know wat porn was!! naive right...sighhh)

mark: i think its normal for guys to look at pictures of other men. but i remember u telling me that u like to look at men in his underwear (he got me!!!)

me: thats true. do u think that makes me gay??

mark: i think it does..

i felt like Mark could be right but i didnt want to admit it to him since he has my facepicture and stuff so i went like this..

me: mark actually i have a girlfriend. i started chatting with you and  i got excited with the chat. i continued to chat with you because it was a dare from my friends. actually im not gay!

mark:......................

i think mark could possibly have been a genuine guy. he never met me. nor has he mentioned about meeting me anywhere in malaysia. but i was frightened and i never wanted anyone to know my little secret...

5. out of the many things that thrill me, men in office attire is definitely one of them.

call me vain but men in fitting shirt (to go with button popping shirt) and tight slacks, low waisted is just my..arghhhh. SPEECHLESS!!

have u guys ever seen a guy who has nice thick legs and slacks so low waisted that when he sits....theres a nice pointy crotch that pops in the middle of his legs..grr..

unfortunately none of the guys in my office wears pants like that..except myself...wait a sec, theres this chinese guy in my office that has massive legs. he plays basketball. i notice that guys who play basketball have juicy juicy legs..must be all the jumping action!! so imagine my wild dream walking infront of me on daily basis! even though his pants are not up to my expected tightness, i still find his legs to be...IRRESISTIBLE!

so irresistible that i might have grabbed his kkj a few times.

and ive caught him staring at my crotch many times when i stand beside him!!! not just him but also my colleague so cant take his eyes off when i go over to his place to ask questions..well its either i have  the most beautiful crotch in the world or that married man with two kids is in denial about his sexuality.not only have i grabbed his kkj, i pinch his butt at every opportunity..when i walk pass him, when i go to his cubicle and even in the pantry when he is taking plain water...i admit...he is my fetish which became true...and guess wat, not once did he resist me..hahahah.

but just this one time, i was walking past him at another cubicle and as usual my fingers lusting for his butt, i pinched his butt...well i couldnt really see what im pinching because i was pretending to walk pass that area when clearly i just couldnt resist his butt. so as usual with my fingers forming lobster claw, i headed towards him trying with all my might to conceal my throbbing erection.

i went closer and closer to him, fully aware of the other colleague he was chatting with and my fingers dived!

left cheek,

right cheek 

and missing both of these, it went straight to his hole! yes, his hole and with the clamp formating i ended up pinching his asshole hair...and darn there were plenty of it!!!!