Perfectionist Freak!

it is yet again that time of the year where people start making resolutions. 

for those who has made one / many last year, it would probably be the best time to have a second look at it, maybe let out a big sigh and start making new resolutions for 2011. 

resolutions are somewhat similar to masturbation >>for men! (sorry ladies, dont know how it is for the ladies). 

for men, it is a highly anticipated, adrenaline pumping action, actively pursued, with high motivation, and extremely very exciting in the beginning to somewhere towards the end of the 'session'....

and then to that final stoke of 'lightning' and ending up with multiple earth shattering shivers of explosive shooting mayonnaise with tingly, lusty sensation that .................

wait a second...on second thought, resolutions are not similar to masturbation after all.

at least with masturbating we are assured that final sense of 'fake' satisfaction...resolutions just make people depressed!

it is made with such high anticipation and is quickly forgotten by the end of the week. at the wake of a new year we realized all the things we wanted to achieve and did not achieve throughout the year and BAM!!!>clinical depression...ok, ok,,not as serious as clinical depression.

years ago, i remember making a resolution to reading at least one book a year. shortly after taht i realised how much i hate reading. it happened when a few days after picking the da vinci's code, i got restless after several failed attempts of reading it on bed (NO! i wasnt doing any other activity on bed)...i just felt asleep..first day, 10 pages>>zzzz.............second day 13 pages>>zzzzzz......fifth day threw the book away and watched the movie (p.s: what the fuss is all about about this particular book, i will never know!)

then i made a resolution of doing one good deed a day, no matter how small it is, to make the world a better place (i know, LAMO!). i even resorted to writing it down in a little book just to make sure i stick to the plan.

one fine day, i realized that i have lost that little book and gone with the book is also the interest to keep doing the good deed. it is just not worth it. felt like swimming upstream!.

getting a pet, being calmer, charitable, happy, doing a satisfying job with better pay, better bonus, better prospecsts...through the years all of these formed parts of my resolutions..to a certain extend, they did became a reality but never did it go to the level of expectations or standards that i set for them.

obviously the is a negative side to it ..

i dont know about you guys but i have the tendency to push my limits too far. take going to the gym for instance. even if i have completed the reps i wanted, i still push myself for that muscle soreness....

where it gets to point where lifting a limb becomes a challenge. the days to follow, suffering from butt aches is what gives me that satisfaction of working out...

its definitely not a good thing because as quickly the results show, they disappear just as quick..whoever said pushing the limits is a good thing must be an idiot...

ring a bell with resolutions?? pushing the limits to something that we have absolutely no control over can only result in: GREAT DISAPPOINTMENTS when what we aspire could not be reached. 

so why make resolutions??

i not made any resolutions for 2010 and dont intend not to make any for the time to come..

just living the moment and hoping a really hot guy would find me irresistable and impossible to live without..

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!