we seek them for attention, for love and being accompanied by our parents made perfect sense. it provided and fulfilled our emotional needs and we were happy.
a few years later, we find that our parents can no longer be 100% part of our lives and we seek friends to fulfill that emotional need. while parents still play an important role, our world starts to revolve around our friends.
puppy love, going for movies, yumcha and gossiping. during the teenage years sometimes we think that our friends are the most hip and happening people around. then we leave our school mates, tuition mates and kindergarden mates and enter university.
here we see the true colours of people. the good ones, the really good ones, the bad ones and the ones you wish you dont see for the rest of your lives.
parents take a back seat, we inform them of our very important decisions as we are capable of making decisions by ourselves.
enter the working environment. we find ourselves having even lesser really good friends. colleagues just seem to have an agenda all the time. we get introduced to the world of office politics, backstabbing, jealousy and arrogance.the next step is seeking for spousal love.
even though i am very lucky in the sense that i can still talk about everything i want to my parent (except the gay part), siblings, relatives and my really good friends from university, there is somehow a longing for a special kind of love and attention.
with all my travelling lately, i find myself on the lookout for that special kind of attention but not from frm friends, family or relatives.
it maybe about companionship or attention. despite the fact that i have a healthy relationship with my friends, family and relatives i still find myself staring at the ceiling asking myself....what is this about?
and i dont seem to get an answer.
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