I find men to be attractive and not ashamed of it..

I find men to be attractive and not ashamed of it..

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

To Kill or not to Kill (Part 2: Get a Life Dude!)

sometimes we regret the decisions we make, wishing for a second chance.

we keep telling ourselves: If only i have done things differently. keep wondering of the positive consequences if the situation were any different.
could it have led to a better future?? thats just wishful thinking..not at all practical...i call these people dreamers. am i one? i dont think so. i feel part of being practical is not regretting our decisions. for a fact i know i havent regretted any of mine.
as much as i think that i want to be practical, i couldnt help wondering how different it would have been if i havent met certain people. take the guy ive talked about in my post 'To Kill or not to Kill'. im freaking glad i killed that relationship..

why am i reacting this way?...i try and try not to be judgemental about him. but i guess theres is only so much that can be endured by a human being.

after the last phone call back in May where i said: u are just irritating me....it wasnt the last of him..

he kept texting.......missed calls were not foreign, forwarded messages, tell me about it...

it was a simple and direct decision. things did not work out and would not work out between us. i felt trapped, cheated and irritated. does that sound like something u want to linger in your life...i didnt want it and i knew it.

we had our differences. it was not rocket science. then the downward spiral...

first, came forwarded messages, next asking back for the things we exchanged (noy by me!), then the missed calls, and saying he would start working at a neighbouring country which made no significance to me.

i guess he just didnt get the fact that i did not want anything to do with him. ANYMORE!
i made up my mind. i am not going to respond. probably best for both parties. i had and still respect him as the person whom i originally got acquainted to, instead of the desperate, attention seeking, obsessive, compulsive, annoying person he has become. i never responded to any of the messages or missed calls.
but like i said a human being can be patient only for so long....
after 6 months of ignoring him, came another message:
have u been telling about me to others? please stay away from me..and i went:

WHAT THE FUCK DUDE!?

 dont u have any shame??

it was you, who displayed the act of desperation. it was you who seeked the attention when i was no longer interested. it was you who were obsessed when i didnt want a relationship. it was you who just couldnt understand when i said its over...and u have the guts to send that message to me?
are u retarded or something dude? how stupid can you be? do u really think u are worth my time and efford?
seriously dude, grow up. do your homework. have proof before you talk. trash talk, is not my thing. i am not raised to be a backstabber. i know better.

but serious dude, its time for you to grow up. or are u having the delusion of being the most desirable man in the world that everyone is trying to frame you for something that they could have you only for themselves??

yuck! grand delusion!
it is time for you to realize things will never ever work out between us, so stop trying to get my attention. i have a life, a good one and i have met incredible, matured people.
you are the exact opposite of them.....
i want nothing to do with you, and if u still dont get that, maybe my blocking you off all my profiles would make u realize that...
i dont gain anything by trash talking you. u are not even my type and it was me who ended things with u. if u had the slightest common sense, u would have been able to realize that...


and when i say i dont want anything to do with you, i am fucking serious about it.

Get a Life, Dude! 

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